11.06.2008

the six o clock thursday blues

the comfort of the coming three day weekend is doing little to help wade through the frustration and exhaustion of being annoyed by 14 year olds all day. 

some of my students just have a very wrong idea about school, as in, they seem to think it is not school at all. i knew it would be challenging, and i was prepared to fight the good fight...

but shit, it shouldn't have to be this hard. 

do i let them get away with it? am i a joke? maybe, but even then someone ought to learn something... and one third is not, and will never be, equivalent to 1.3 regardless of how many times that mistake is made. 

we'll get there, though, even at the expense of their science and social studies education. 

i need to do literally a million things, if you took the time to count them all up, including all of the great books i've never read, but instead i am in bed, wishing i lived a totally different, better life. 

will i ever be happy again? will i ever find satisfaction in a day? i know i must not really be a joke because jokes are funny and i am always mad. didn't i throw my fist in the air once and swear on all the turnips in the south that, as god was my witness, i would never be so unhappy again? what happened to that commitment, i wonder... as the topic of commitment comes up often in my head. 

who cares. 

me. too much.

and obama was elected with the same kind of emotional fervor as the conclusion of "the return of the jedi," but this news moment is the reason george lucas stopped at 6 movies and didn't make a follow up trilogy-- obama is rebuilding the jedi academies and bringing the alliance back to the galaxy... it's fucking boring. 

i have $22 and i am prepared to trade it for delivered sushi. 

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