"oh hell no"

i'm literally thinking: 5:43am
"oh hell no"

it's monday and i haven't prepared a single thing

it's leap testing week and i am 100% certain we are fucked

and now, 6:31am, my keys are in my pocket and i'm wearing that grey outfit that i like so much

(it's comfortable)

i start to walk out the door and i'm crippled suddenly by my churning stomach muscles
the anxiety and all-out fear tingles up from my kneecaps; then runs slowly, like burning acid, through my intenstines.

i'm not making it up, i'm thinking. 6:35am.
there is an actual substance, a sticky, gelatinous toxin spreading through my system. i can feel it.

what will happen today? and what can i/could i have done to stop it?